Wednesday, 26 February 2014

TRUE LOVE




“Love is blind, isn’t it? I think this is ridiculous since there is no such thing beauty lies in the eyes of beholder, if you are ugly, you are ugly then. Why are you fan of this kind of novel? ” Janet put the novel back in my bookshelf. 

The novel was about a pretty girl who had lost her beauty due to a rare skin disease. However, the hero would tell her everyday that she was pretty and stayed loyal by her side till the day she died. I grinned and said to Janet;

 “Love is blind and I believe it, and I believe people will do anything out of love”, Janet looked at me cynically. 

“You can say such thing because you are beautiful and you have almost everything in your life. Others can’t be as wishful thinking as you are because they know it just a lie”, Janet tried to argue with me “and Adam loves you so much. You are lucky.”

4 June 2008 was the day I met Adam. Adam was a nice guy and Janet once said that Adam was every girls' dream. It was a hot sunny school day when I had a long queue to buy ice-cream. 

“I want a cornetto ice-cream” I asked from the vendors.

 “It is sold out; do you want any other ice-cream?” 

I only eat cornetto ice-cream and it was unlucky that the last cornetto ice-cream was bought by the boy who queued in front of me. 

“Eve, you can have mine”, the boy who queued before me offered his ice-cream and I was surprised he knew my name.  

 His class was opposite to my class and I always saw him every day yet I never knew who he was. We became closer after that day. He was my senior, two years older than me.  He admitted that he always peeked out through the windows and always turned away when I caught him looking at me.

It was a good day. The sun shyly penetrates its light. Kids were playing and laughing happily. I wished I could turn back at my childhood moment. I sat a bench, waiting. Adam promised to meet as he said he had something important to tell. It was a day before he went abroad to further his study. Someone touched my shoulder and it was him. He smiled and gave me a rose. 

“Eve, I love you deeply and I hope you are willing to wait me”, Adam confessed and I saw sincere hope in his eyes. 

Knowing him for almost a year, I am sure he was the one for me. Soon, his family moved as his father was promoted and that was the last time I met him.

Years passed by and Adam still contacted me. He sent e-mail frequently and always cared about me. I was happy to have him in my life. I never regretted to say yes before. It had been four month since Adam last sent an e-mail to me. I was worried if something bad happened to him. One week later, I received an e-mail from him. He apologized for making me worried, saying he was too busy since he is in his last semester. He had graduated and he wanted to meet me at our favorite cafĂ©. I was thinking about Janet’s words.

 Will Adam be my true love?

 When I said Janet was too pessimistic about love, she said “I am not pessimist, I am realist” 

A week passed, it was 4 June 2012. Adam said it should be a special day for something special. Adam was there when I arrived. I looked at him from far, trying to assure myself he would be able to accept me. He was as charming as before, a guy whom able to melt a girl’s heart. He took out a ring and stared as if he was thinking deeply. He hid it in his pocket. A waiter came to him and asked whether it was the time. Adam said wait until the girl come. 

I was not sure to go or leave. I was afraid to be disappointed. After an hour, I decided to approach him. He was shocked when he saw me. He greeted me. Only silence filled our conversation. I looked at him and I knew he was miserable. 

 “Eve, I am sorry to say that I can’t keep our relationship. Sorry for your waiting. I need to go now as I have something to do.” 

Adam leaved me alone there. I cried though I tried my best to hold my tears. A waiter came and gave me a bouquet of flowers. It was red roses. The waiter said it was from Adam. 

“It is not for me, you have mistaken”, I said to the waiter and walked away.

  “It was for Eve that he met five years ago and that gift won’t fit a girl like me”, my heart hurted more than I thought it would.

 That beautiful Eve whom Janet always complimented was Eve before she fell from a cliff during hiking two months ago. I saw my reflection in the mirror at the sidewalk and wondering,

“Who wants to marry a crippled girl like me?” 

::A short two-pages hand-written story while i am in foundation level, i miss cfs so much. No words can describe it :(


Tuesday, 25 February 2014

My love song



For the song i never sing to you
it echoes loneliness in my heart
sing me your love sing
let me hear the melody

My life
for the song i never sing to you
it echoes loneliness in my heart
Where shall i go?
if my only place is your destiny
for the song i never sing to you
Will you listen?
one day in the farthest future
future that i am afraid my soul won’t never touch
Will you listen to my love song
one day in the farthest future.

 IIUM GOMBAK
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Wednesday, 5 February 2014

Kisah Biawak



Semasa aku sedang menunggu kawan aku, aku tengok sekelililing dan aku nampak biawak dalam ‘sungai UIA’. Macam ‘comel’ jer. Kalau jadi biawak best jugak kan?

Eh?

Aku pelik semacam?

Dalam al-Quran menyebut tentang kisah penyesalan orang kafir yang ingin menjadi tanah. Alangkah beratnya tanggungjawab menjadi manusia.

....."Alangkah baiknya kalau aku menjadi tanah (supaya aku tidak dibangkitkan untuk dihitung amalku dan menerima balasan)". (Surah an-Naba;40)
 

Manusia

 
Menjadi manusia ada tanggungjawabnya, bukan hidup sekadar hidup. Jika hidup sekadar hidup, biawak juga hidup. Manusia itu istimewa, diberi kelebihan berbanding makhluk ciptaan Allah yang lain. Kelebihan itu adalah akal yang mampu berfikir untuk mencari kebenaran dan itulah yang membezakan makhluk yang dinamakan haiwan dan manusia. Biawak tahu makan,minum, tidur dan banyak lagi tapi yang aku pasti biawak tak masuk kelas kuliah. Lantas jika manusia malas belajar, apakah bezanya? Lantas bilamana manusia itu malas menggunakan akalnya untuk berfikir, apa bezanya?



Untuk aku dan sahabat

Tahniah kerana berjaya maju setapak lagi dalam kehidupan. Mencecah kaki ke dimensi kehidupan yang baru, kehidupan mahasiswa/i.

Tahniah kerana berjaya menyempurnakan bai’ah dan secara rasminya bergelar pelajar UIA. Tahniah sebab kita sama-sama nyanyi lagu UIA yang ada frasa ‘is to realize the meaning of khalifah’

Tahniah!



P.S : Aku bersyukur dilahirkan sebagai manusia. Imaginasi aku memang melampui sempadan manusia normal tatkala emosi aku serabai. Entri ini spesifiknya untuk aku yang malas sangat nak belajar.