Am I numb?

If I can ever write how disappointed I was,
Maybe words won't be enough,
Scratches of all memories,
and the beat in my heart,
Little and little...
Slower and slower...
It loses its pace,
and I know not, what it means by heartache?
Does it hurts?

What if...
if, the cut stops inflicting pain,
if, the smile doesn't really amplify happiness,
if, the tears are really of no value,
if, the steps I pave just because I'm alive.
What if, I already feel enough of something I need not?

Of too much,
I forget what the feel of living without,
Am I numb?
Nope.
Am not, I still feel,
I feel nothing.

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