My apology

I am afraid to be nice
it makes me vulnerable
   like I am afraid to be too sincere
as I am giving chances for somebody to hurt me

I am afraid to be true
saying things right religiously
when it contradicts the norm
like the talk to the deaf- nobody is listening

But I am too, afraid
   the day I will stand before my Lord
when every single actions count
of what I have done- silent approve of all those

My voice doesn't echoes to you
for piousness of mine is not enough
to open your eyes
or to touch your heart

I am afraid
when I look to my yesterday
like my fear, when I foresee my future
but you, couldn't understand none

I stumble
and the hope you gonna catch me fades
You see I am drowning
but not my struggle

My apology won't be enough
for you to see how fallible I am
or it's your ego doesn't catch my look
and notice my silent tear drops

IIUM
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